DIFFICULT FRIENDS

difficult friends expect you to run to them;
like bees going to flowers and boys going to girls

difficult friends don't say nothing;
like your silent teddy bear and smiling gollywog

difficult friends are sinful;
like bars of chocolate and tubs of ice cream

difficult friends are everywhere;
like stretching sand dunes and endless oceans

difficult friends are too good for me;
i'd rather be friendless><


of course im not saying all my friends are difficult. just lamenting the fact that some are, and yet, how on earth do you point that out? it's been so disappointing recently that i just want to watch more Fugoh Keiji and pretend im a pink jewel in a glasshouse world.

gakko ja oshierarenai, its nice to live in someone else's world for a change.

i hate everything right now. okay, not EVERYTHING cause i still love TV and shun and yuya and shu. but apart from that and a handful of girlfriends i cant's seem to shake off this hateful feeling for every other thing.

am i going bad? i can totally feel my heart turning a dull shade of black. like apples left out too long in the open, i feel myself rotting slowly from the inside, outside. what happened? why can't i live in a world of pink and roses and hello kitties?

who says that uni life will be slacker?

its a LIE okay, a HUGE LIE

because i used to be able to:

1) watch more TV
2) watch more videos online
3) read more magazines (and that includes intellectul print like TIME of course)
4) shop more online AND offline
5) stay in school to chitchat till evening
6) not pay attention in lectures
7) still able to do about 70% of my tutorials
8) not prepare for lectures AT ALL
9) not prepare fot tutorials AT ALL
10) sleep at least 6 to 7 hours (or more) during non exam periods

it turns out that all these are off limits to me now. and supposed its alot worst for the law people. oh well.

寂寞恋人的孤单，真的会比孤独一个人的寂寞还寂寞吗？
也许，我们都太天真，太爱想象了。


你的笑容是恩惠
世界难得那麽美
於是追要你陪
可惜本能终会将美丽汗水
化成泪水

黑夜之所以会黑
叫醒人心里的鬼
在游说在萦回
在体内是什麽在把我摧毁
在伤痕累累

我可以无所谓
寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废
做什麽都不对
oh … i'm not okay

我假装无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰
无论(有)多虚伪

空虚并非是词汇
能够形容的魔鬼
它支配着行为
能摆脱寂寞我什麽都肯给
就像个傀儡

我可以无所谓
寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废
做什麽都不对
oh … i'm not okay

我假装无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰

我也无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰
无有多虚伪